Long time I am with a little desmotivation problem with my drawings... with exception of my last Picture from Manga Class, I am sure desmotivationed to draw anything now... "desmotivationed' is a real word?
There is something funny.... Art-Block is when I want to draw something and I have no idea to draw, while desmotivation I want to draw but I cannot draw it...
It is strange... but anyway...
I just felt watching TV is better than stay in computer...
in other words...
I am feeling a little bit alone while in computer...
Even my MSN still working, my brother said it will stop and I won't be able to use it anymore... and it sucks...
Maybe that is the reason from being so desmotived all these days... also the second time when a good picture went very touching when I was supposed to be down...
I just think when I'm sad, my drawings gets a lot better than normal...
When I made that picture I was desmotived to draw... but I was missing a lot my manga class so I needed to go wanting or not, as tehre is a few weeks I didn't draw him... why not draw him again... BOTH OF THEM^^
There is only problem when I like/love something... it just doubled...
that is why sometimes I can be very insane... it is just normal.. it is my way to show I LOVE that character in special...
And with this desmotivation... I started to watch CARTOONZAUM and I normally end up watching one or two KND episodes...
That reminds me a character in special... the lamest character from KND...
Ok, I am talking about Toiletnator XD
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To be honest, when I watched KND, I used to like a lot Toiletnator before... just because he was the first character evuh to make me remind Topman... and was a taboo... right now characters to reminds TOPMAN must have a cool hot-blooded, impish... and other very 'do not want to mention right now" characteristics... and when has an appearence similar I normally end up hating the char, like Teru, but it is another story
. But the Toiletnator (because color scheme, head form and "weakest-go-round") was the first character I used to remind Topman in all my timeline... but now adays it is a taboo, the right is hate Toiletnator, but I still 'havesomefeelings" by the W.C. themed villain, wow, is he villain? And the world goes round XD
Also made me think...
T is the letter for the LAME XD
Topman and Toiletnator kinda makes some point for lame... I admit, I can love Topman, but it doesn't make me forget his reputation as one of the lamest Robot Masters ever... he sure is better than others lame characters because Topman has good point when stealing young girls heart just like a vamp, i know because on part of my soul is trapped since 4 years old >.>Û...
But I am sure until the end of this month my character can change... it is being hard to stop thinking Topman recently because of this "funny fact"
WHY IN THE WORLD WHEN I THINK ABOUT TOPMAN I AUTOMATICALLY THINK ABOUT TOILETNATOR AND VICE-VERSA???
Currently the only way for me to watch Kids Next Door is fortunate to have a lucky inside this block of two hours ... otherwise it is better to cry ... I didn't find many episodes dubbed in the Internet... so I wait... and long time after maybe ten years after, my brother said KND was indeed a cool cartoon... I want to watch the final episode, I only watched the final from the final... and not the full episode...
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Without these moments I feel like I was having bad time to sleep these days too... I dunno if I'm paranoic with my own "supposed to have" powers... I just think I am being haunted by something... the most strange is the fact I have something to do with it... When my mother had my age she had some experiences before... and this kind of stuff is a little bit normal for the women from the family, but I still a little girl... with almost 20 years but still a little girl
But I am feeling a pattern... in 2011, I felt sick a lot... 2012 I had some problems to walk... and now this paranoia, maybe I am feeling a kind of pattern for each year... just thinking
2011, I found people who must be died right now... 2012 I met with a continuation from my past and a "new start"... and this year, I have an uncle (mom's "revived" brother) who is very very sick... but who told him to drink and smoke a lot ?? -_- In fact I won't be surprised if he die this year... ¬¬
He smokes a lot and I paid the duck with allergy crisis >...< I hate smokers...
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my life is complete.... again...
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